No Longer Descendant of The Dragon

Yesterday I did something to my face, today I did something to my hair. After long consideration, I decided to dye it. I dyed it with a colour mixture of copper+maroon. And here's the result. Beware as the following consists of my self-captured pictures. But please just focus on the hair. Haha..

Looked more significant under sunlight.

Lighting in the mall ('s ladies)

Lighting in my room. Can't make the difference eh?

My hair colour is like a camouflage. Look different in different place under different lighting. Anyway the result is satisfying. If you all wanna see how my real hair looks, come see me in person. Lol

Mask-ing At Midnight

I had been sleeping late recently. (Blame it on World Cup. Haha) My health has really taken its toll. Frequently sick and my skin is suffering too. So I had decided to give it a little pamper. Please no more pimples pop-up too...

I don't do mask often, in fact I had only done twice before so I really had no idea which is the best brand. Any recommendations?

Green tea mask from Watsons. Was on promotion so I thought no harm trying right?

It smells good...

Not being able to smile and with a mask sticking on the face, can't look any better I suppose. Lol

Japan lost by penalty to Paraguay. No luck. But really good spirit. We Asians are proud indeed.

Tada~ Look more radiant? Haha

Spain is going to play against Portugal in another 50 minutes. Way to go Spain!!

A Little Something of Everything

Two more weeks and my long holidays will come to an end. Its again time to go back to my 'beloved' university, located at the 'tranquillity' of Nibong Tebal.

Thinking back of what I had done this holiday really made me guilty as I resolved to the conclusion I had done nothing except slacking and more slacking. Bummer...

This entry is kind of a random one to share a little bit of something of everything this holiday. Haha.

My Google Chrome Spanish background. My favourite team. Hehe

Fox's fruits flavour sweets

Aren't they colourful?

Comfort food.. Yum!

Ready for school. My new stationaries and document folder with some musical touch. Hehe

Facial mask and dental floss. Ensuring a radiant face and nice smile~

Books that accompanied me this holiday

Finally this letter from my school that makes me having to go back USM at 11th July to attend a talk regarding something claimed to be vital for my future undergoing.

That's all for now. I have better get going and use my time wisely for this last two weeks to go.

Pride and Prejudice

Recently I had the pleasure of reading this book, Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen.

This piece of work was filmed into a movie at 2005 where Keira Knightley played Elizabeth Bennet and Matthew Macfadyen played Mr Darcy. I had yet to watch the movie so the characters in the story are not altered by the images of the actors chosen for the movie.

This is indeed a book I personally enjoyed reading and believe a lot of you would find enjoyment in reading it too. Though the classic English used would requires one more effort to understand it.

Nevertheless its worth reading and makes me wondering when will my Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy appears before me and gives me the felicity as of Elizabeth Bennet. Hehe

你最近还好吗

S.H.E - 你最近还好吗

词：姚若龙

曲：林迈可

挑一张耶诞卡写上慢慢祝福的话

地址写的是心底你能不能收到它

天有点冷 风有点大 城市宁静而喧哗

这一个冬天我得一个人走回家

有再多的牵挂 都已没有权力表达

旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬

昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大

这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗

没有你每到夜里回声变得好大

有没有什么好方法让寂寞变听话

你最近还好吗

是不是也在思念里挣扎

你说会记得我 还记得吗

你最近还好吗

忙碌吗 累吗 心还会痛吗

如果真不得已忘了我

快向快乐出发

夜之三

It has been quite some time since I last updated my blog. I went to places and visited people, but there is nothing much in within which I would like to share. I had been moody and I wouldn't like to continue feeling like this nor allow myself to be consumed by fluctuating emotions. However I just can't help it. I can't help feeling the hollowness in within and I wouldn't want to lie in my blog. Which is the only place I can speak out freely about my thoughts and feelings.

I don't know why I post out today's entry. But I guess I did finally felt better after being the emo girl for quite some time. I am transforming into Emily The Strange.

Emily in rock version. However, I don't like cats.

My friends came all the way from KL to visit us these few days. We went for Toy Story 3 on the first day. The movie is funny but brings out its own message at the same time. Thumbs up! Highly recommended. It does serve in giving great pleasure to me.

The second day we started well with Spain won over Honduras with a 2-0. It did indeed lightened my mood. We went to the Tropical Spice Garden. Nothing to shout for unless you are one true nature lover. At night we were given a great tour by our 'tourist guide', which even taught me much about my own hometown, thus heated up the Penangite spirit in me.

However I am constantly full these two days. Bet its bad for my waistline. More exercise after this as I was diagnosed of high cholesterol recently. No kidding.

Football fever had taken its toll on me. Insomnia and not feeling well. But since I was incapable of sleep, why not catch a match of football game? Its South Korea vs Nigeria now. With a score 1-1. But I still have faith on South Korea. Try your best please and make me at least feel better.

editted: South Korea only drawed 2-2 with Nigeria in the end. Bummer.

Happiness Wherabouts

Don't know what is wrong with me recently. I would be happy the minute before, totally emotional for the next. A surge of mixed emotions rush through, making me totally clueless of what is going on to me.

These few days had been really hectic going to trips and doing chores at home. I try to make use of my time fully, occupied my time so that I will not have a single minute to think nonsense. But yet, my attempt failed.

I desperately need a listener that I can pour out my soul. I had been deceived by the mask I am wearing that I thought it was my face, just to realise beyond tearing off the mask outside, there's the hideous inner self of mine I tried to hide.

If I were given the chance, I'll like to shout out loud, hoping the wind carries away my worries. I wished my sorrows can be washed away by the waves like the words written on the sand.

I am so hopelessly helpless now. I am like a patient not knowing what disease I carried. God please diagnose my sickness and cure me with the best medicine. Held out your hands to me and don't ever let me go.

I yearn for God in my life.

I want to live life in God's purpose.

I need true happiness from within.

夜之二

深夜，总是让人胡思乱想。那宁静的时刻，可以让思绪穿越任何星空。

何谓缘份？何谓有缘无份？

世上的得失真的是注定，还是可以靠自己的努力去争取？

如果是注定，那我们就无法改变自己的命运吗？

如果靠争取，却又为何付出了努力又仍没有结果？

最近情绪又再起伏不定。发觉自己变得有些孤僻。

可能是累了必须戴着面具，演戏过日子。

累了找不到一个可以谈心事，了解我的对象。

想起夜宴里的一句对白，

“ 不是要把你的脸以面具遮住，而是要把面具变成你的脸。”

难道长大了，必须学习的就是假惺惺做人，把小时侯学的真诚待人的想法抛个九霄云外？

厌倦了毫无目标的日子。

厌倦了胡思乱想的脑袋。

厌倦了如此情绪化的自己。

夜，总是让人迷失自己……

夜之一

“ 想念是会呼吸的痛，它活在我身上所有角落…… ”

夜深人静，一个人看着意大利对垒巴拉圭的比赛，突然感到莫名的寂寞。

此刻的我脑海里突然浮现了一个如此陌生，却又那么熟悉的一个人。

“ 不是因为寂寞才想你，而是因为想你才寂寞…… ”

耳边不时响起这首歌，

不过我警惕着自己，

“ 记得要忘记 忘记 我提醒自己

你已经是 人海中的一个背影

长长时光 我应该要有新的回忆 ”

原来我学会了忘记寂寞，但寂寞却不曾离弃我。

Father's Day Treat

We'll always come up with excuses to allow ourselves to devour good food. So what's the excuse this time? Its June so what else? Father's Day. Haha.

We brought ourselves to Soon Lai Seafood for a treat.

Their weekend special - Spring roll

All time favourite, belachan fried kangkong

Curry fish fillet

Tofu on hot pan

It was indeed a satisfying meal. After that, I allowed myself one more treat, McDonald strawberry cornetto sundae. I am such a glut. No next time.

My sundae topped with cornetto and chocolate chips. Love~

Two days one night trip at Malacca

Its school holiday finally. So I went on a family trip with my parents to Malacca. The journey took about 6 hours and we lodged at this Palace Hotel. The hotel is situated at a quite strategic location, within walking distance from Jonker Walk, one of the main attraction of Malacca.

We visited Mini Malaysia & Mini Asean on the way to Malacca City. There's different types of houses of the 13 states of Malaysia shown here.

Jonker Walk

Freshly baked biscuits

Cheng Hoon Teng Temple

Jonker Street view

Baba & Nyonya Heritage

Malacca Christ Church

Malacca River and Harbour

The whole trip at Malacca was hot and sweaty as we have to walk to all the places of attraction. But I did enjoyed it and cherished the time spent with my parents. Its fun to see them being naggy about things and I realised being a family and staying together is all about taking care and tolerating each other. Indeed a great trip to take my mind away from all the unpleasant things and to take a short break.

Changes

Change is the very nature of life, welcome it. No glass ever became sand again; No bread ever became wheat; No ripened fruit ever became a flower. Welcome change, and choose what kind of glass you create, what kind of bread you bake, what kind of fruit you harvest.

Life is full of changes, recently I noticed so am I. They are so many reasons for the changes in me. Now I felt that I myself is very unpredictable. The question to 'Who Am I" is yet to be answered.

Changes in life may due to a lot of different reasons. However I cherished each of them.

Case 1: I used to like Chipsmore a lot when I was a kid and I hated Oreos. But now I like Oreos but no longer craves for Chipsmore. Now I realised our likings will change with time. Nothing is for certain always. There is no such thing as forever so never believe or make promises one can never keep.

Case 2: When I was Form 4, I was head over heels for TVXQ. I would spent hours downloading their albums and music videos, keep to date all their news and everything I do would relate to them somehow. Now that I had grown up, there is no more time and spirit for idolisation. I know I have more to accomplish rather than wasting all my time on five guys who no doubt can sing and perform greatly but have nothing to do in my life. I would not say that I have matured much, but at least I can think better and have better hold and vision of my life's purpose. Time will mold a person into better individual. So don't look back at things we cannot change, instead look into the future.

Case 3: Last time I would never listen to Jay Chou. However after listening to his music I found that they are indeed nice and meaningful. I learn that we must change our mindset so that we can accept new things and never let our thinking lingers the same old box. We must give ourselves the chance to think out of the box as well as accept and experienced new things in our life.

Nobody stays the same for their whole life. We would go through different stages in life where we meet different people and face different situations. Situations we had never encountered nor even imagined. We will learn about the dark sides people never showed. We learn to think differently and not trusting everything we see. We will also learn to be strong and less naive. We have to keep our true feelings in disguise and never show our weaknesses. This may be hard and tiring to hold on.

But remember, God is everything to us. He is the sole reason for us to keep hanging on and he will be with us through every sorrows and joy. So we must be the clay and allow God to mold us. After the shaping and burning of the fire, we will turn from the shapeless and soft clay into a strong, beautiful vase.

Lost And Found

Today is the day the result for second semester is unleashed. Early morning I woke up with no special feeling, neither anxious nor worried. Its like I am having no expectation for anything.

I signed in to Facebook, few posted regarding their result. Not really interested honestly. No one else would do worse than I did. So i proceed to check mine. Overall my result did improved. But still its not a graceful one. More hard work needed for next semester.

Suddenly a thought swept over. Life is all about give and take, lost and found. One can never own everything, yet nobody will not be left with nothing.

Last semester I had cut down my activities, though lots of time still lost doing unnecessary things, but the fact is I put more effort and I did reap what I sow. I spent less time enjoying, so my result improved.

Few year ago my teacher lost her husband due to cancer. This is no doubt a great lost to her. But through this, she felt God's undying love for her and her family and yearn for God. In the end she converted to being a Christian.

I believe that when a door is closed, God opens another one for us. Sometimes we thought that we know what we want in life, what we need, and we'll grumble when we don't get what we asked for. But its God that knows whats best for us and he will always give us what is best. His grace is sufficient for us.

爱就对了

SHE - 爱就对了

词：施人诚

曲：洪信杰

总是要留一些滚烫热泪

才能换来对爱的体会

你看 世界没有毁灭 心也没有碎

其他的就交给时间解决

你当然可以从新再爱

受过伤的更懂怎样爱与被爱

所以 别再沉溺有他的回忆

有空再回忆 离开你的只有他但是爱还在

我当然经历过你现在的感受

我想那是人必经的折磨

也许 每个人都该是某个人 成长的助手

受一点苦痛帮助他成熟

别探听他的线索 别等待他会回头

爱 不喜欢看人软弱

别继续把心封锁 别躲在伤心里头

爱 万一来了别错过

听我说 爱是对的 错的是我们

还没学会爱 就急着爱人 而爱错人

可是 爱就对了 遇到下一个

爱上就对了 痛苦或快乐 都是获得

听我说 爱是对的 错的是我们

自以为懂爱 才会又爱人 又伤害人

可是 爱就对了 爱了就值得

爱这门功课 艰深但快乐 爱就对了

爱 万一来了别错过

Books

Recently I am so into reading. My new hanging place, Borders. Hehe... Totally comfortable ambiance for reading and relaxing after days of cloudy mind. A place for me to take a breathe and stay far from the hustle and bustle at home.

After much consideration, I've bought two new books. What The Dog Saw by Malcolm Gladwell and Predictably Irrational by Dan Ariely. Hope I can benefit and enjoy both books.

时间

夜深人静，我又失眠了。最近脑子想了好多好多的事情。

曾经有人告诉我，时间是最好的解药。我果真体会到了。它让我从以前的影子里走了出来。

突然觉得人的感情好脆弱。两个人的感情可以随着时间慢慢建立起来，但却会随着时间的流逝很快地转淡了。

有时我根本想不起，甚至不敢相信我们曾经那么爱着对方。原来我真的成了你生命中一个小小的角色，但你会是我人生中重要的过客。

那天朋友突然问我，想你了吗？我想了好久，竟然不知道答案是什么。

不知是你在避开我，还是真的很忙，又或许你真的跟我没什么好聊了，都不重要。这段期间的零交流真的把你变成了我最熟悉的陌生人。

才发现原来我是有复原能力的。

才发现原来我一点都不脆弱。

我的眼泪不会再流了。

我的心也不会再痛了。

我已经再次熟悉了一个人的感觉。

我又再回到那没有你的日子。

原来，时间真的是最好的忘情水。

Taken For Granted

So many things that happened lately makes me ponder. Why can some people live life happily and fruitfully though their life's condition is no better or even worse than mine. Why do some people living in a mansion with tonnes of cash but never really smile from their heart.

All these days I had been ruminating. I realised this one thing. I had been taking a lot of things for granted. I was given a lot and never really know to appreciate or show my appreciation.

Life is not all about accepting. It involves giving as well. To serve and not to be served.

I took my family for granted, especially my dad. He is not a man of words, but his action shows he loved me deeply, trying to please and fulfill my will. I took for granted because I knew he would love me the same always and I will not lose my dad.

I took God for granted. When I was lost and helpless, I seek God for comfort and advise. God is always there for me. Holding me tight, giving me comfort, loving me always. But now that I am getting better, I start to lose myself again, forgetting that God should be the first priority in life.

I took time for granted, wasted the time before doing nothing.

I've seen people who show no appreciation, in fact lack of gratitude towards people and life. All of a sudden, they are like a mirror, reflecting myself no different from them.

From this moment onwards I want to try my very best to change myself and blame no one for everything that happened to me. I wan to appreciate everything I am given in life. I don't want to wait till I miss them and regret then.

Don't wait till you lose it only to learn to appreciate. Take hold of all the opportunities you are presented now.

Life has no repetition.

Who Am I

It is a new month, with a new me. I wouldn't say I am a turned over person, but at least I have new vision, a new mind set, looking and hoping for the future in a brand new way.

Have you ever felt that the more you look into yourself, the more you realised you don't know yourself. This is what happens to me now. It's like I don't even understand what kind of a person I am. I don't really know what expectation I should set up for myself, whether I will be able to live it out. In a nutshell, I don't understand myself.

Whether time is going to tell, or do I have to go through more life experiences or I just simply change from time to time. I guess that's up to me to ponder.

This is a hillsong I liked a lot. About God's love for us no matter how weak or meek we are. We are strong not because of who we are or what we do. We are strong because we are God's children and he loves us.

Who am I?

That the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name

Would care to feel my hurt

Who am I?

That the bright and morning star

Would choose to light the way

For my ever wandering heart

Who am I?

That the eyes that see my sin

Would look on me with love

And watch me rise again

Who am I?

That the voice that calmed the sea

Would call out through the rain

And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am

But because of what you've done

Not because of what I've done

But because of who you are

I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow

A wave tossed in the ocean

A vapour in the wind

Still you hear me when I'm calling

Lord you catch me when I'm falling

And you told me who I am

I am yours

Whom shall I fear

I am yours...