Grief

Struck me hard that 

He's gone, forever

They said he's going to become a fairie in heaven

But deep down I know

That's not the case

Coalesce

Today is my third day working as an industrial trainee at Fairchild Semiconductor. So far things have gone way better than what I expected and I am indeed very blessed in many ways.

1. Unknown to me on my first day heading to the waiting room to wait for the HR personnel to bring us around, I learnt that I knew all the other trainees. 8 of us from USM and another 2 of them are my matric mates. 

2. The HR personnel is a really nice lady that even knows me by name and called me 'darling'. Haha.

3. I have a really decent supervisor, who is a very competent lady. She has helped me a lot in assigning a really nice, air-conditioned workstation and  a company laptop for me and even arranged a full schedule on what I will learn in the coming 10 weeks.

4. I am in a office filled with really friendly colleagues (or uncles) who will talk to me and even told me to feel free to explore the place and have breaks as I want. Hehe. 

The reason I am inspired to write this entry is due to two happenings. One of which is a good one, another a sad one. Let me start with the happy story. Although I might be, or in fact I am very long-winded, please read the whole story patiently because every details matter. 

When the clock strikes a quarter past five this evening, I happily packed my stuff and walked swiftly towards the carpack (because 1. The earlier you leave, the shorter time you got stuck in the congestion; 2. It's Subway dinner, thanks to Mr. Bangau's reminder. Haha). So as I quickly placed my bags into the bonnet, an uneasy sensation filled me. I knew why when I started the car. My car failed to start up, and since this is not the first time, I knew immediately that my car battery went flat again. And I had just changed it last July! I quickly called my dad for assistant and he told me he will be there as soon as possible, which most probably will be one and a half hour later. Since it was really hot, I walked back to the guard house for shed. When the guards learned that there is some problem with my car, they quickly offered to help. Initially one of them offered to go take a look at my car, when I told them it was the battery that gives all the problem, they helped me to call a nearby foreman for assistant.

While walking out to the carpark to wait for the foreman, that was when God does His miracles. There was this Indian guy who walked towards me and asked if I was looking for anything. I am quite sure I didn't wrote it on my face that I was in trouble. I quickly told him that my car battery died. He instantly offered to help me. Together with two of his friends, they first tried to start the car by pushing it. When the trick didn't work, they helped me to jump start it. Did I even mentioned his car was parked right next to mine? I then went over to the guard to thank him and drove safely home.

Through this incident I learned that God is always watching over me. And even though at that moment I was too shocked to even asked God for help, He already knew what is going to happen and had arranged help for me. There is no such thing as a coincident. God is good, all the time.

As for the saddening news which really broke my heart, I just learnt the death of my ex-babysitter's husband.  I can still remember when I was still young, he really took care of me a lot. During then the broadcasting time for cartoon always crashed with the evening news. And he would always let me watch my favourite cartoon and sacrifice his own 'news hour'. He would always be remembered as a man of few words, but a loving father and elders.

The most remorseful thing for me is that I had been procrastinating. I had always wanted to go over to visit them. However, due to just starting work I had been delaying the day by day. Until my parents came across his children and learnt what happened to him. We constantly think that there will always be a tomorrow. But we never know when will the day come when we missed our loved ones, or they passed by us. For me, I never wanted to let go any other important people or things in my life.

Insight

Backside parking, just a simple action 

That can make you realised 

That nothing is too hard to be done

As long as you have the will 

To stop complaining

And start doing instead

You will be amazed at what you are capable of

There is nothing wrong with failures

Or flaws

Practice makes perfect

No one is borne complete

Life isn't about regretting what you did

Yet continue the same stride

It's time to prove that

Indeed, action speaks louder than words