你，有没有这样的时候？

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明明很想哭，却还在笑。

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。

明明很想留下，却坚定的说要离开。

明明很痛苦，却偏偏说自己很幸福。

明明忘不掉，却说已经忘了。

明明放不下，却说他是他，我是我。

明明舍不得，却说我已经受够了。

明明说的是违心的假话，却说那是自己的真心话。

明明眼泪都快溢出眼眶，却高昂着头。

明明已经无法挽回，却依旧执着。

明明知道自己很受伤，却说你不必觉得欠我的。

明明这样『伪装』着很累，却还得依旧…

为的只是隐藏起自己的脆弱，即使很难过，也会装的无所谓，

只是不愿意别人看见自己的伤口，不想让周围的人担心，不想让别人同情自己，

只想在心底独自承受。 虽然心疼的难以呼吸却笑着告诉所有人“我没事的！”，

然后静下来时，自己便笑话自己，何必把自己伪装的那么坚强？

好像自己可以承受所有的苦难，呵呵。。 这好累。。好累。。

你，有没有这样的时候？莫名地心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静地发呆，怀念着逝去的人和事。

你，有没有这样的时候？突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷得发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。

你，有没有这样的时候？发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。

你，有没有这样的时候？突然感觉自己与世界格格不入，你曾经一直坚持的东西一夜之间面目全非。

你，有没有这样的时候？突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。

你，有没有这样的时候？别人突然对你说：我觉得你变了。然后，自己开始百感交集。

你，有没有这样的时候？突然希望时间为你停下来，就这样一直和喜欢的人地老天荒。

你，有没有这样的时候？在自己脆弱的时候，想一个人躲起来，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。

你，有没有这样的时候？突然很想哭，却难过得哭不出来。

你，有没有这样的时候？夜深人静的时候，突然觉得寂寞深入骨髓。

你，有没有这样的时候？走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。

你，有没有这样的时候？明明自己心里有很多话想要说，却不知道怎样表达。

你，有没有这样的时候？心中有一股无名的火，很想找个人发泄，很想大声喊出来。

你，有没有这样的时候？觉得自己其实一无所有，仿佛被世界抛弃。

你，有没有这样的时候？明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。

你，有没有这样的时候？很想放纵自己，希望自己彻彻底底醉一次。

你，有没有这样的时候？自己的梦想很多，却力不从心。

你，有没有这样的时候？常常找不到事情做，无聊得无所适从。

你，有没有这样的时候？突然找不到自己，把自己弄丢了。

你，有没有这样的时候？心里突然冒出一种“厌倦”的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。

你，有没有这样的时候？看不到自己未来的样子，面对未来，迷茫得不知所措。

你，有没有这样的时候？发现自己一夜之间长大了。

你，有没有这样的时候？听到一首老歌，就突然想起了一个人。

你，有没有这样的时候？希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。

你，有没有这样的时候？别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷得发慌。

你，有没有这样的时候？常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。

你，有没有这样的时候？渴望一场轰轰烈烈的恋爱，很想去做一些疯狂的事。

你有没有这样的时候？渴望被人理解，渴望别人的关怀，渴望一份简单的快乐。

你，有没有这样的时候？看着时间一点点流逝，自己却无能为力。

熟悉的或陌生的你，如果也有这样的时候，说明你在无奈中一天天成长了。 在无奈中成长起来的，有你，也有我。

Of Scarecrow

In a dark cold night the full moon shines

brightly among the twinkling light

Chilling breeze comes swiftly by

a lonely scarecrow in the meadow

Alone he stood, alone he spread

in the sunshine in the rain

No one to tell of all his sorrows

no one to hear him when he wept

Behind the hideous face

an angel resides within

Bearing the pain he must kept in silence

From all the despise he was thrown upon

'Who would understand?

Nobody would care.'

A lonely scarecrow stood alone

tears flowing silently

heart throbbing soundlessly

Happening Wednesday

The entry was dated back to 18th August, Wednesday. I was so tired these days so the posting is postponed until now. Finally can take a breathe at Friday. Just a small gasp of air.

It's the birthday of two of my friends aka coursemates, perhaps daddy-to-be. Sorry mama. XP Traditionally, we went for a celebration at Penang Island since there is a limited of venues to be chosen from in the mainland. Where did we went? I guess if you had been following me, you would have been smart enough to make a guess that we went for karaoke, yes again. LOL. Obviously Red Box would be the place we set for so off we went after class. Seriously it did felt like a Friday already.

Presented to you our main characters, Jong Shen and Moo

Most of us were practically starving by the time we got to Gurney. No way we are going to sing with an empty stomach. Having again limited choice of restaurants, we went to Xuan Xin Ramen House. We were lucky as we escaped the peak hours thus skipped the usual long queue. Despite the small space, the ambiance is really nice with a little Oriental touch. While waiting to be served, we did some snapshots. Hehe.

Uron and Moo

Salted fish, mama and me. Does my t-shirt looks any familiar? Haha

During this time, the customers came pouring in filling the empty seats. After some time, the arrival of the food was hinted by the alluring aroma of the noodles. Ho jiak!

Our birthday girl is happy with her food. One can tell by the t-shirt she was wearing

Tummy filled and everyone was satisfied. Off we went to Red Box. We were all ready to sing till we drop!! Its indeed enjoying to see them singing all the songs by the band Shin. Karaoke is indeed a good way for me to be recommended to nice new songs, even old ones. Hehe. I personally like 死了都要爱 which is a very old song but I just got to know recently.

Moo and the guys (Ch3, bihun, woof, jong shen, dailou, chess master and jien boy)

Sista (uron, mama, moo, me and salted fish) ^^

Whats for dinner? After much attempts to go for Xuan Xin steamboat, finally we made it this time. Hehe. Whats so special here is the porridge based soup. There are a wide arrays of meats and balls to choose from. A teppanyaki section is allocated at a corner, grilling really tender and juicy beef and luncheon meat.

Just when you thought someone is finally eating vege

Turn out to be gulping in fishballs and meatballs. One would have thought we went for lok lok rather than steamboat

Not forgetting to give credit to our dedicated prawns 'skinner' who performed the most tedious job, thats right, skinning the prawns before grilling them. Saving all the mess and trouble. Thanks lots~

With the number of people, we were given two connecting tables with a porridge+tomyam based pot and another one porridge+some-clear-soup pot. Tomyam would definitely be my choice and I was lucky to be in this part of the table.

The other half of the table took to much food and in the end they settled them off by playing game and the losing team had to finished them off. Lol.

Free flow of ice-cream with three choices of vanilla, chocolate and mint were to be chosen on weekdays. I understand that more choices are available on weekends perhaps due to larger crowd.

Though tiring, we enjoyed ourselves. Wish the birthday guy and lady (LOL) a very blessed year ahead and that things will go for the best for them.

The guys

The girls

The gang

牛之诞

今天是个非常具纪念性的日子，在二十年前一位重要级人物于马来西亚，柔佛州诞生了。由于女主角曾经说过读华语较有亲切感，所以只好勉强以我那不怎么样的华语下笔。

大家猜到她是谁吗？虽然知道大家都懂了，还是想卖点关子。哈哈。

她爱搞怪，

又带有点神秘。她还会是谁呢？

答案揭晓！她是我们理大工程化学系，二年级的大家姐。什么都没有，就是钱多、全世界最美最可爱的

歌后，可爱邱美moo！！

一个人就需要三个麦克风，领教过她的厉害了吧~

大家姐当然不容易当，偶尔还得做些打散的工作。辛苦你了……

毕竟认真的女人最漂亮

平时大喇喇、又打死都不穿裙子的她打扮起来还真让不少男士们拜在她的石榴裙底下呢。

外刚内柔的她也有让人欺负的时候哦！嘻嘻

献 肃雯

时间啊真是没有停下来让你喘气的一刻。回想起去年刚入学的时候，单枪匹马来到这个人生地不熟的地方，在这里遇到了一群为我大学生涯增添色彩的姐妹们、同志们。你是当中的一个，也是扮演着重要角色的那一位。

记得第一眼见到你时留下的印象是一位超有气质、斯斯文文的邻家女孩。可惜啊，一开口以那神速说话就把你那过度活泼的性格毫无保留地给展现了。哈哈。之后你那pattern多过badminton的个性更是为我们带来了无限的欢乐。你那体贴与很会照顾别人的个性也令人非常窝心。如果没有你，日子怎么过……

第一年在理大的点点滴滴，

去年你生日时第一次化学系同学们的隆重登场。地点当然是你最爱的唱厢

还记得当选大家姐的那一天你说的话，“你会让我们好过的！” 果然不错，第一次到tao自助餐。开始了我们的美食之旅

一起参加了中秋宣传组。Do Re Mi Fa So~

每个生日都值得庆祝

第一学期放假旅行

第二学期开始前，再度重逢与唱厢内。唱歌可艺疏解压力，也是表达感情的好工具

民以食为天，到久久吃四川菜，慰劳慰劳自己

今年我生日时

依旧是在大家的最爱，Redbox

出动全班，浩浩荡荡吃团圆饭。为了能让大家不分彼此，聚在一块儿，大家姐功不可没!

极乐寺一游

新春宣传组在一位如此口齿伶俐的组长带领下把所有任务一一胜任

还记得在小草颂新歌发表会上控制灯光，虽然腰酸背痛、颈项都快抽筋了，但却非常有满足感

为Chemical Night练习舞蹈

世上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。五位美女齐齐站。哈哈

就这样过了两个学期。回想起以前涩嫩的日子，又好气，又好笑。真的觉得自己长大了。

一起以最原始的方法吃着以保盐锔鸡

很高兴与荣幸可以认识你那么一个好朋友。希望你会过得很好，遇见什么困难或烦恼都要说出来，别自己窝在心里。你是那么一个好女生，未来的日子祝福你遇到一个适合自己、体贴周到的好男孩。从你身上我学会了自信，你也一样哦，because YOU worth it!~

七夕情人节

今天是七夕情人节，我依然是老样子一个人度过。在此先祝普天下有情人终成眷属。至于跟我同一类的单身贵族呢，有目标者请尽快行动，须知花开堪折只需折，末待无花空折枝。其余的别灰心也别紧张，先好好享受单身的生活，缘分要真来时你想挡也当不了。

最近满脑袋里装的全是测试、小考、又更多的测试。把我憋得上气不接下气，快透不过气，昏死了。教授们是否可以行行善，通融通融呢？

尽管如此，偶尔别忘了抬头望一望那云上的太阳。它时而热情如火,像个刚烈的好汉;时而却含羞答答地躲在一朵朵棉花糖般的云朵后面，像个红脸蛋儿、娇滴滴的小姑娘。

深呼吸， 仔细想想，牛郎织女如此恩爱，一年却只得在喜鹊桥见一次面。他们仍努力地过着每一天，期待着每一年的那么一天， 满足于那么一刻。

那试问我们又会有多大的烦恼，多少的痛楚，能把我们脸上的笑容给剥夺呢？

Weekend at Home 2

Today is just like any ordinary Sunday. Went to church as early as 7.30am. Met my aunts and cousins thus did some chit-chatting. Bearly able to keep my eyes open.

We went to Gurney Plaza again as my dad has to deal with his faulty 8GB memory card. Upon entering the plaza, I saw before me the newly opened themed restaurant, Clinic Cafe. The waiter, dressed in a nurse uniform claimed that L they are serving food from 13 different states in Malaysia, ranging from Malay food to Western food. The decoration inside is certainly interesting and I would definitely give it a try someday.

Lunch was at Wong Kok, its Hong Kong cuisine again. I guess my parents prefer Chinese food as it feeds their tummy better. Haha. Not forgetting they are showing Lee Hom's concert that day.

Yin Yang again, but kinda too milky for my liking. Kim Gary's version certainly gets my vote

Japanese curry fried rice. I can't detect the slightest hint of curry in it

Macau pork burger

BBQ pork chop rice. Does this looks like BBQ sauce to you? And the pork is very tough with fibres. @.@

Went to Lam Loong to deal with the faulty 8GB memory card. In the end it turns out that there is definitely nothing wrong with the memory card. The problem is that our memory card reader failed to support it. So my daddy bought a brand new one that guarantee to read up to 20GB. Haha. Surveyed on the digital SLR while waiting for my daddy. Over budget, forget about it.

It reads multi-card reader. Can read even my cellphone memory stick

Initially I plan to go back before the massive congestion at the Penang Bridge starting from 5pm but I failed to make it on time after taking a turn to Jalan Kajang in search for a musical instrument shop, Art Tune. I found it but too bad it is closed on every Sunday. Better luck next time. I have always wanted to get myself a guitar.

On the way back, my daddy bought two coconut jelly. Totally nice especially in such hot weather where I am practically melting. If only I really do... Lol

Coconut jelly. Refreshing and cooling

Went for dinner at Kutta Bali, a hawker center just beside the swimming pool at Farlim. I used to learn how to swim there but it had been long since I last swam. Wondered if I can still swim.

Claypot chicken rice

Mango sago dessert. I simply love mango

Fish and spaghetti. I guess the sauce has some kinda Philippines flavour since the stall is called The Little Phillipines

Reached USM campus at around 8pm. After some cleaning up and unpacking, I worked on my MATLAB which is giving me headache. Why am I such an IT illiterate? Bummer... Will be looking forward to a better and more efficient week. There is no more time to lose!!