Serious Insomnia

It's already 5 in the morning and I'll be having class in 3 hours but I am still wide awake. I guess I am in an excited state after supper (my favourite Riyas 'Cham peng' and roti bom). It's been long since my last supper as it's fattening and is bad for my tummy. Anyway, once a while should be excusable. Lol

Yesterday was the welcoming night of Litlegras. The respond was not bad. DK11 was fully packed with first years, well almost packed. Have had a great time drowning myself in music. Hopefully I can learn to play guitar this semester. After that a ritual yumcha session, which indirectly must have something to do with me not sleeping now.

Am I tired? Yes I am. But why am I not sleeping? I can't tell of any reason. Hormone imbalance? Higher possibility my brain nerves go haywire.

The clock is ticking, okie perhaps digital clock doesn't tick, but time sure is passing. Can I go MIA later??

Red-Eyed Monster Strikes

It had been quite some time since I blog. The reason is due to super slow line that prevent me from signing in my blog, plus the heavy workload that's gonna crushed me.

Question, so how I am able to blog now? I am currently at home. Question again, home during weekdays? I am sick. The red-eyed monster strikes again. Bless me...

Woke up this morning with puffy and watery eyes. Went for the clinic this morning, ending up with packets of medications but not knowing the actual problem to my eyes.

After taking the medicine, I felt extremely drowsy and fell asleep, missing the two classes of the day. Honestly it was not my initial intention to skip any class.

After much consideration and discussion with my dad, I realised that this issue can't be taken lightly. Who knows of the consequences to it if I just ignore it. So I drove all the way back home again, but alas, I was too late. All the clinics are closed so I have to wait till tomorrow.

And after feeding myself, it's sleep time again. God knows how much I slept today but still I am tired. Woke up at 8pm to do some reading as there might be a quiz tomorrow on mass transfer. A subject I have been half awake during lectures.

Felt grateful and paise at the same time as my friends were quite worry about my condition. Anyway, pray to God that I will get better and please don't blind me. Worry, worry. I promise I will never abuse my eyes anymore after this.

Besides that I also felt sorry for my daddy for worrying him. Sometimes I wonder what did I ever gave him besides worries and problems. No matter what happens he's still the one I turn to in the end when I face problems.

I love my daddy in heaven and on earth.

Yet Another Friday

This entry is dated back on 23 July, Friday. I guess I went home kinda frequent lately, but for a reason of course. So since I am back to the city, a more decent meal is unavoidable.

Went to Kim Gary, opted for chinese food as my daddy is a traditional China man. Lol.

Horlick, coffee and my 鸳鸯(coffee+tea)

Crispy chicken and Shanghai style vegetable

Spicy noodles with pork slices and pickled vegetables

Pork chop and Shanghai style vegetables

After that, I rushed back to campus for 大专迎新夜. It is similar to CF just that the main language spoken is Mandarin. It had been a long time since I went for their meeting. Going back reminds me of my first year during first semester. Its nice to gathering with all the brothers and sisters in Christ. Even better, a lot of the freshies are from my school. Hehe

Life Brief Candle

Just got back from CF Welcoming Night. It was indeed eventful as though I am no freshie, it was my first welcoming night too. Haha. Shame on me for never been to CF during my first year. But I am determined to attend every meeting starting from this semester. Besides that, I was the MC. Okie, I admit this is surprising but I am not telling lies. Being lousy as I was, it was still a great experience standing in front of people to talk and trying my best not to make a total fool out of myself.

In fact I am trying to open up new opportunities for myself. I remember the movie 'Yes Man' where Jim Carrey must say yes to everything people ask him to do. Of course I won't say yes to everything, but I am trying to accept every offer and opportunities given as long as I still can manage to cope. I wanted to give myself the chance to do things I always think I am not capable of.

I had been aftering a Hong Kong drama, 谈情说案. Some said this is the Hong Kong version of the Japanese drama, Galileo. The story is about a professor helping to solve crime cases using his physics knowledge. Very interesting indeed. Used up a lot of my self-control not to finish all 25 episodes at once. However, part of the storyline ignited the sorrow account in my memory. The break up part of the heroine and the professor. The situation is so similar to what I had been through. The personality of the professor and how heart-broken the heroine was. But the good thing is that in the end it is a happy ending for them both. This is a movie anyway, scripted storyline and acted characters.

A poem which is also one of my favourite comes to mind, which reminded me that time of earth is indeed brief, so waste no time doing things which have no significance in the end.

Life's Brief Candle

To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day

To the last syllable of recorded time,

And all our yesterdays have lighted fools

The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!

Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player,

That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,

And then is heard no more; it is a tale

Told by an idiot, full of sound an fury,

Signifying nothing.

3rd Semester 1st Outing

This is my 2nd year at USM already. Time really do fly. So while we still have some leisure time and are yet free from burying ourselves among piles of notes and thick books, the eleven of us set of to the island again, minus Ernest and Jien Boy.

As early as 9.30am in the morning, we cleared our throat and headed to Red Box to sing our hearts out. This is where all the future stars train their vocals. Haha.

Dai Lou and Bihun (a vegetarian one, Chai Bihun)

Japanese Boy and Ch3

Lim Chun looking like David Beckham (ok, just the hair) and Jong Shen

Five of us ^^ (Cow, hippo, cat, pig and salted fish. What a combination)

Initially we were torn between Bon Odori or the beach. So since it started to rain, we've decided to skip the crowd and the mud, choosing the peaceful beach instead. We had a crapping session where Japanese Boy played a great part to keep us amused with his cruise experience. Poor thing. Lol

Hard Rock

Deciding its way to early for us to go back to campus, our final stop at Coffee Island turned out not to be the best choice for yumcha session. Diluted 'milos and vicos' as well as constant splashing of water droplets costs us RM100. Not a bad experience though. Everyone learn from mistake.

Total RM99.95

The following is just a sharing of my first curry mee experience. No kidding. This was my first curry mee for 19 years. And I have to say it actually tasted good. No harm for a second time. Haha. Moral of the story, always try up new things.

My curry mee

Chendol in cup. Do people here eat it this way?

你永远都不会知道

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当你一层一层的拨开我的心。。 你会心酸。。
因为我心里装满的都是关于你。。

你不会知道~
在每个夜深，我想你的那一刻是多么的寂寞，
多么的难受，多么的无助。

你不会知道~
每当我想打给你的时候，却又不能打给你的那种感觉，
最痛的不是思念一个人滋味，而是想念她却又不能拨电给她。。。
那种滋味比起孤独寂寞还来得。。。。。痛~

你不会知道~
每当电话响起，我是多么的希望是你打来，
但为什么每次电话响起的都不是你 ?

你不会知道~
每当我信息你的时候，你却不回我信息，
我会在想，为什么你不回我信息，
还是你已经讨厌我了。

你不会知道~
每当我和一大班朋友出去的时候，你却没有在我身旁，
想你的我是多么的孤独，
人群的喝彩中找不到自己要的快乐，因为没得与你分享。

你不会知道~
当你生病时，我是多么的担心和着急，
但我不能在你身旁照顾你。。

你不会知道~
想你的这些日子我是怎样过，是因为你不爱我，
我明明知道你不想我，却还爱你，是因为我太傻。

也许有时候，逃避不是因为害怕去面对什么，
而是在等待什么。

有些事，我们明知道是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；
有些人，我们明知道是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没结局；
有时候，我们明知道没路了，却还在前行，因为习惯了。

我愛你不是因為你是誰，而是我在你面前可以是誰，
我在意的是你怎样看我。。 而不是别人，
别人怎样说我不理， 我只知道，
对自己喜欢的人好，是用心来对待。

爱上你 不需要理由，你到底懂不懂，
可是怀念竟比失去还要难受，
爱让我，想起你的时候，泪禁不出滑落。
也许你永远都不会知道这些感受，



但我希望有一天你会明白，这一切全都只因为我在乎你..

Blowing Wind

May the wind blows...

Blows away all the suffocation...

Blows away all the complications...

If only a strong wind can blow everything away,

never to come back again...

I wanna stand up tall and strong,

may there be peace in me...

Missing Old Time

Just had a great gathering with my ex-roommates (pei yin, xue li, 女儿, and 大嫂). We had a good talk and great laugh. I just miss the times when I can go back to my room and talk about my day. Miss the times when the 4+1 of us would talk about everything and anything followed by a really laugh-out-loud.

Not that my new roomies are not friendly or anything. They are just that nice. Perhaps we need more time to warm up. And everyone is busy with their own activities. I haven't been in my cosy room for more than few hours daily. Have to go out early and come back late. By the time I got back everyone is mostly asleep. I am too a late warmer myself. This makes me taking quite some time to adapt myself to any new surrounding or condition.

Just simply missing the old crazy times and looking forward to the coming ex-roommies gathering.

Wishing Upon The Star

Today is the 1st day of my official school day, though it felt like I had been back for some time already.

I guess I woke up from the wrong side of the bed, wait a minute, I thought I hardly slept after I got back from the exciting World Cup final where Spain won against Netherlands. Hehe.. Anyway, things didn't went on smoothly for me.

Being back to room around 6am after the match, I woke from my one hour sleep at 7.30am to hurry to the Pusat Bahasa to register my English subject. In the end, we waited for a good 1 hour just to get ourselves registered. When we got out from the building, there it was on my car, a note from the guard, giving me a final warning for parking my car at the wrong place. Okie I was blacklisted once but at least no fine. No complains.

The day before we were given a briefing about an accreditation interview held today. Thinking that no way I will be picked again, I went back to my room sweet room thinking of having a nice nap. I was awoken by a phone call from the school asking me to hurry back to my school's seminar room as I was the 'Chosen one'. Again?

With full unwillingness I brought myself there. Waited for another one hour, another briefing given, interview set at 2pm. In the end, I waited for 3 hours just to be interviewed for 15 minutes. Great. There goes my siesta and my first school day.

Finally got back to my room at 6pm. Took a shower and went for dinner. Upon returning to the campus, my car got blocked though four pleasant and totally harmless charming ladies are seated within. Lol. What is there to say...

After changing a new lock for my bicycle (I lost the keys of the previous one), went for a stroll-on-the-bike with Mama and Ch3. It has been such a long time since I last cycled. It made me recalled the time when we first arrived at USM when we cycle everywhere for lectures and lunch. Later on Moo joined us. We chatted and had a great laugh. I have never felt this way for such a long time when I can relax and throw away all the unpleasant thoughts and just be plain me. The sky is filled with blinking stars. I haven't had the time to really enjoy the night view, not that one is able to detect any stars in the city sky.

I had been trying to adapt to my new life (new semester, new stage of life, new roommates, new surrounding, new lifestyle). I admit I did felt something missing but I am glad that my friends are with me to go through this, making my life as colourful as ever. I pray upon the star that tomorrow will always be a better one.

Starting of new semester

Today is the official day everyone start pouring into the campus. I guess most people are just sad to bid the holidays and their home sweet home goodbye, yet I bet everyone is glad to meet friends and spend this whole new semester together, achieving greater results and meet greater challenges. Haha, good say.

A small part of my stuffs to bring back to USM (not forgetting my doggie, a birthday present from my friends this year). Wondered why I always have to bring there more than I bring back home.

I was back yesterday. After a forty five minutes journey, finally the main gate of USM Engineering Campus was before me. I was actually excited and glad to be back here not knowing exactly why.

One of the main problem that kept playing in my mind before this is what room will I get and who will I get as roommates. Finally the answer is revealed. I am so lucky to get a ground floor room with three people. Guaranteed an even more sedentary lifestyle this semester. Oops~

The ground floor rooms are furnished with new closets, new desks, new lamps, new beds, what else is new? Haha... In a nutshell, most of the furnitures are new. The tiles floor is also more easy to manage and keep clean. My new desk is way bigger than the old one, my new bed is longer in length (not that it makes any difference for me), my new closet has a full size mirror. Hehe.. I am not sure if the new lamp is brighter or the new fans can turn faster. LOL. Ok, I should stop my boasting.

A sneak peak of my new room.

Still clean and tidy. Haha. Hope to maintain this till the end of the year.

I thank God for granting me this new room. I am indeed very lucky. I am also very lucky to be given a very nice roommate, one of my 4th year senior. As for the other roommate's identity still remains a mystery as she does not shows up yet. But I bet she's a good soul.

A very satisfying start of a new semester. Is looking forward to spend more quality time with my fellow friends and use time more wisely this semester. There's this chinese saying, a good start secures half the success.

Despicable Me

This is the end of my two months long holiday. But the good news is (if you can assume it is), it is the start of a whole new semester. Everyone gets excited at the start of something new. We will have new dream, new resolution, vowing to do this and that, and end up doing few to nothing. And when the end comes, we will tell ourselves 'I will try harder and do better next time'. But have it ever occur to you how many next time do we have? I think I have reached the age and stage where it is really time to take things more seriously and think of the consequences for everything I did and am doing.

Went for movie with my parents, filial daughter here. Lol. We were deciding on Knight or Day, Eclipse or Despicable Me. Finally my mum made the choice. She likes cute stuff I guess.

The movie starts with the Egypt pyramid stolen. Our main character, Gru, who wishes himself the world's biggest villain felt weak compared to the latest theft committed by a new, younger villain. So he decided to steal the moon. In the process, there comes in all the other characters where he met three little girls, Margo, Edith and Agnes. He wanted to use them to succeed his plan but in the end he found something more important than what he was aftering all the while. He found true love and himself.

The movie is indeed very enjoyable, funny and relaxing. But most important, I like the message it brings. Gru himself wished to go to the moon when he was little. He was never given enough recognition from her mother. She was never proud of him no matter what he did. This made him eager to be the biggest villain to make her proud.

This made me reviewed on myself. I had been trying to get attention too. Trying to get recognition from others to prove that I am doing well. I tried to be someone I was not just to please others. Then I realised, we don't need approval from others to know that we are doing well. What others thought is best for us might not be what we are meant to be. So why are we so afraid to show ourselves that we choose to be what others want us to be?

This is a new beginning. There had been times when I despised myself so much for what I had done. Wasted all the time for nothing. Doing or dealing with things the way I know is not right. But I know the time will not turn back for no one. The only thing I can do now is change the future.

I ask God to be with me, give me strength when I am weak, and give me hope when I am lost. I wanna try the best with who I really am. I want to find myself.

I am who I am..

Korea Palace Restaurant

After Spain won the match against Germany I was in a good mood. Slept til 11am this morning when my aunt called me. She got me food. Haha.

Yummy cempedak fritters. Drool... This is a seasonal fruit so you don't see them all the year.

I have had international cuisine this last week of mine at home. So it won't be complete without going to a Korean cuisine. Where was dinner tonight? Korea Palace Restaurant beside Palace d India.

Korea Palace is under City Harvest Church

Set up of the table

Banchan (side dishes). Free refills

Lettuce and condiments to wrap the barbequed beef together

We asked the kitchen to barbeque the beef for us. Save the smoke. Lol

Kimchi stew

Korean rice cake. Totally yummy

It's me again

With my parents

They gave us these after our meal. The liquid drink taste sweet and cooling.

Total damage

The food is really nice and very satisfying. My tummy is bulging out after the meal. Oh no. Still full now. Haha..

给未来的自己

梁静茹 - 给未来的自己

词：黄婷

曲：李正宗

站在狂风的天台一望无际

这一座孤独的城市

在天空与高楼交接的尽头

谁追寻空旷的自由

阳光覆满这一刻宁静的我

隔绝了喧嚣和冷漠

川流不息的人游荡在街头

谁能听见谁的寂寞

找一个人心心相惜 找一颗心心心相印

在这个宇宙 我是独一无二 没人能取代

不管怎样 怎样都会受伤

伤了又怎样 至少我很坚强 我很坦荡

夜幕笼罩灿烂的一片灯海

多少人多少种无奈

在星光里遗忘昨天的伤害

一觉醒来还有期待

我不放弃爱的勇气 我不怀疑会有真心

我要握住 最美的梦 给未来的自己

一天一天 一天推翻一天 坚持的信仰

我会记住自己今天的模样

有一个人心心相惜 有一颗心心心相印

抛开过去 我想认真去追寻 未来的自己

不管怎样 怎样都会受伤

伤了又怎样 至少我很坚强 我很坦荡

我不放弃爱的勇气 我不怀疑会有真心

我要握住 最美的梦 给未来的自己

不管怎样 怎样都会受伤

伤了又怎样 至少我很坚强 我很坦荡

未来的你 会懂我的疯狂

Midnight Manicure

It's now Spain playing against Germany. Suddenly a pang of hunger hits. Guess what? Unable to resist myself, I went for my Korean noodles. A new brand 'O-tu-gi'. I read it according to the label. Hehe. My basic Korean Class proves useful.

Supper tastes spicy. Not bad..

For the 1st half both teams are not able to score any goal for themselves. Though I was nervous, I still manage to do some manicure to de-stress myself. No kidding, I do get very nervous when my favourite teams are playing.

I opted for blue nail polish this time. I always use Elianto. Note that I don't get paid for this piece of advertising.

The results are not that good as I was eye-ing the idiot box while applying the nail polish.

All the best to Spain. I wanna watch them playing in the final!

Editted: Spain won over Germany with a 1-0. I am SO TOTALLY excited now!!

Penang UNESCO Heritage Day

Congrats to Penang for the recognition by UNESCO as the Heritage City. So its a holiday today!

As usual, holiday means family day as my sis and I are not always around so whenever we are back, we will be treated well. HAHA.

Being in a sushi mood, we went for Japanese Food. Hehe. This is really rare as my daddy don't fancy Japanese food.

See the frog? We went Sakae Sushi. I personally like it better here compared to Sushi King.

Sakae Organic Green Tea

These ginger are spicy sweet. My mum likes it a lot. Can't help herself with more helpings.

Take our own orders with the computer beside each table. Really convenient as there are too many customers and the staffs cannot attend to each table in a short period of time.

Don't know what is this but it tastes good.

Tuna Mayo Inari Sushi

Ebiko Chawanmushi

Katsu Curry Don. My dad just loves curry.

Gyu Don

This is mine. Hehe...

Unagi Kamameshi

My parents

Anymore introduction needed? Haha.

Since today is Penang's Heritage Day, it won't be complete without going to one right? So we went for a visit to Cheong Fatt Tze Mansion. Each entry is RM12 regardless of age. No photographing allowed inside the mansion.

These trishaws are at least a hundred years old.

The second last day being at home only I started to feel that home is indeed a nice place to relax and rest my mind.

Spain and Germany will play tonight. In a dilemma whether to support my favourite team Spain or Germany which is so good in their teamwork. May the best team wins! Getting nervous already. Hehe.